From pain to pleasure

My Yoni-Trauma and me - a Love Story

I used to believe I can't have orgasms. I would just not feel any internal pleasure. I liked to demonstrate to my girlfriends how it felt by rubbing my forearm with my hand. I would still choose to have sex as I found it very exciting until it reached the point of penetration and it wasn't really enjoyable anymore. Often I kept it as a secret, it felt like something was wrong with me - so I pretended everything was great. It was very frustrating hearing about other women's pleasure. Getting older and being more confident, I eventually learned to have clitoral orgasms which felt like a revelation at the time. It was still super sad to realise I couldn’t have internal orgasms. I found one of these websites selling online courses alsongside crystal dildos for ‘‘Yoni-Dearmouring and Trauma Healing’’. Without understanding the essential tools of BREATH, MOVEMENT AND SOUND, I went searching for painful spots in my vagina which where burried under the numbness. I suppose I was succesful in locating my trauma. Sadly I didn't know how to transform these stuck emotions in my womb and by triggering them I regressed into immense physical pain and despereration. This was the real start of my healing journey. I realised I needed help with this ''trauma''.

After countless hours of somatic therapy for embodiment and numerous tantric trainings, I learned so much about being with my emotions. I know now that my capacity to feeling pleasure & experiencing orgasms equals my capacity to feeling (emotional) pain. I learned to love my pain. Having experienced all of this, I am fully ready to hold a safe space for every women brave enough to increase her capacity to feel pleasure & pain while being guided in BREATH, MOVEMENT & SOUND. It's going to be an epic journey into aliveness - I promise!